Stormy

A much delayed and needed post, I think:
Well...summer break is nearing its unfortunate end. So much has occurred in the previous weeks. Though through the recent comings, it is as if I have subtle doubts. There is so much turbulence within my subconscious... so much unnecessary conflict. Pain, doubt, confusion. All differential factors from multiple causes. I fear that will power and optimism alone will not be enough to recompose my mentality. I believe that the key to all of such salvation is the Lord above and her. I have come to realize I rely on her so much more than I had previously believed. Seems that she is what I require to instill and regain self-confidence. Through such anguish, and doubt, it is so simple how the solution relies on one so close. Such dependency to grow so quickly and how it creates a binding and crucial connection to another is often marveling. To think that one has a hold over another so powerfully and to not even realize that fact. Is acknowledging this fact mistaking weakness for strength or strength for weakness? Contemplative conflicting thoughts plague the mind. The solution resides closer than belief.